In the picture: Pontus, Lars (still one of my best friends), My brother Magnus, Peter (closest childhood friend), Me with the Snake skateboard. Sitting in front of us; Malin, her sister Frida and Gisela.
When I was 15, I wanted to look like Kurt Cobain, but instead I looked like the drummer in Hanson Brothers.
It first wasn’t easy for me to date girls. Before high school, I really wasn’t the coolest guy. Other kids was interested in football. I was a dreamer that played imaginary games in the forest. When I was 11-12, my brother sneaked outside and ease-listened on a non-alcohol-disco arranged by my class mates. He heard two girls outside talking gossip about me: - “Yuk, I had to dance with Mattias! Euwh!”
My brother told me this after I grown up to strong 13; when I had the courage to say no to mom and abandon my mullet and throw away my glasses. I threw away my glasses after the first day in high school, an older student walked up to me and said: “glasögonorm!”. It means “spectacled snake”, in Swedish it’s equal to nerd.
My brother also mentioned that he had been talking to the previously coolest guy in class – Ronny – who said: -”Why the heck is Mattias getting all the girls for? We are much better looking than him!”
I didn’t break so many hearts, was to shy at first. It was mostly girls that crushed my heart. Now I’m almost longing for it…